But even more than that, I don't want my parents to choose a husband for me. And that's what will happen if I stay on Earth.
So I make a deal with them: if I go to Station 21 and don't get chosen by a Khanavai male, I will come home and allow them to plan the rest of my life.
At least if I end up with a Khanavai warrior, I'll have some say over my life.
I just need to make sure I get one who will bend to my will. Not that alpha-hole who announced I belonged to him on day one.